I have been volunteering at a dispensary named Medical Marijuana Education Center for a month and I can truly say that I love my “job”. For the first time, in a very long time, I am truly happy.
I haven’t always wanted to be in the cannabis industry, but I have longed for peace and happiness within myself for as long as I can remember.
I’ve come to enjoy the people that I spend the majority of my time with, all in there each individual way. Some of them have differences that I don’t necessarily agree with, but I respect everyone as the individual they are. The patient advocates and the patients are an extended family, and I’ve grown fond of them.
One of them reminds me so much of my best friend, that I find myself talking shit to him as if he were my bff himself.
The schedule and general routine of the day to day business has done wonders for my anxiety and depression. It has given me something to be proud of, to feel like I have a purpose beyond my family and the misery of mental illness and meds.
In any other job, the excitement and anxiety of meeting new people and fitting in a new environment would have worn off by now, and I’d be stuck at fuck.
I finally feel balanced. Life isn’t perfect for anyone, but I feel like I’m closing in on a happiness that I’ve never experienced before. To finally be honest with myself and to love and respect myself. To be someone my children can be proud of. To feel complete.
All of the hard work and long hours are worth it, especially knowing that I’m helping other people who benefit from cannabis, and I’m able to provide for my family by doing something I love.
I have a future with this collective and I look forward to growing with them and the industry while helping others with safe access to quality cannabis for their medicinal needs.
I was starting to think that it was never going to happen to me. I owe MMEC a lot for taking a chance on a guy with a bunch of tattoos and no experience in the field, and for motivating me to be better.
*This post’s header image is from a 2012 hip-hop album cover to MC Prototype’s EP, Chasing Dreams. I was introduced to this friendly and talented artist through an old skater buddy and fortunate to land one of my beats on his album (I used to make hip-hop beats under the alias Dijital 4mula). You can check it out here.